Horrible day yesterday

I am convinced that the Lord is either using these migraines to break me, bring me to my knees for whatever reason. Or break me from my yo yoing, making me to fight for this weight loss this time around.



Because yesterday was soooo horrible, I got the worse migraine on one of the worse days, the night I have my class until 10:00 at night and more than the headache, I suffered nausea to the point I had to put my head down at work and work as I could. And it's a catch 22 because I'm so sure I'm getting these headaches due to needing to lose weight eat healthier. But when I make the changes to do so, I am more prone to get a migraine than when I'm eating whatever I please.



My first decision about it was to pray, that if there is something I am to learn, see do that I'm not that the Lord would allow me to clearly see. My other decision was to fight through these two weeks. Not going to stop doing the cleanse, did decide to get my DD coffee in case my body was just totally shocked by the lack of sugar, so that will be my one sugar item that isn't coming from fruit until my body gets use to not having as much again, so keeping that on taking migraine medication daily even if I don't feel one coming on, at least for these two weeks. And just enduring if one kicks in.



Unless none of the above matches with what the Lord reveals to me, that's the plan. suffering for two weeks is better than getting these things no less than twice weekly. Having small occasions of not getting any. And prayerfully it's just an issue of diet change if nothing else if I stick closely to the types of foods I'm eating on the cleanse, none are in the category (that I can think of) that triggers them. Just have to be careful of eating salads from salad bars.



On another note, I did weight myself this morning and weighed at 240. It's funny because I ate horribly over the weekend and last week. Also weighted myself I think Friday and I was 243, don't know what's going on with that but praise God. I basically in 3 months lost 4 pounds!!


***Update***

I've mispoken in 3 months I've lost at least 9 pounds, I say at least because I didn't begin weighting myself right away and oh how I forgot my inches lost during my lil tantrum LOL. My point was I'm not losing as I should based on the efforts yet the efforts were stalled many times so in actuality I'm doing well. Just beating myself up because I'd gotten to 229 during my inital lost about 2 years ago now (WOW) and looking at having to lose just to get back to that point then the rest still to go. Which if God doesn't hold stuff over my head, why in the world do I!? A question I'll probably ask myself for....every time I do something like this:) Chosing right now to focus on the ability to lose, to work out, and not have something worse than migraines to overcome!!

****Update over:)***


With working out and largely due to going through changes with these headaches. But at the same time I'm so encouraged because as I stated in a post before, this is the hardest time I've ever had losing weight but it's also the longest I've endured with such trials coming my way. Usually when I see the scale isn't moving how I'd like, I toss my hands up and say forget it. So this is teaching me how to fight through something that's difficult and let me add seems as if I shouldn't have to go so hard for. To be patient, how I have to depend upon the Lord for all things because there is only so much I can do on my own in this, even when walking in His wisdom I have to learn when to stop and ask Him specifics.

So in all of the difficulty and what feels like tons of waisted time I'm mad encouraged and will see this thing through to the end.

Spring Cleaning for myself:)

Welp I've committed to doing what I probably should have done long ago, doing another cleanse. I do so at least once a year and only reason I hadn't yet is because I wanted to do some losing on my own and then do it. Typically I'll drop 10 pounds easily on a cleanse so figured if I did it during a plateau period rather than early in the game, it would keep things moving. Well the plateau decided to come early in the game so I'm still on point:)

So sitting Slim Fast to the side and doing it when I hit a plateau and in the meantime going at the cleanse. I lose about 10 on Slim also, and not into dropping fast so much as that jump start. But due to these migraines I wasn't able to do the Slim Fast and not sure if it's Slim Fast itself, or the fact that a migraine was already kicking in before I even started. Nevertheless it's what made me decide to go on and cleanse, could be a need to detox that's the problem as well.

And I just read on a blog that research says that migraines can be linked to being overweight. Hmmmm that could be my answer yet I've been heavier than this without any issues. But I wouldn't mind if that is the problem because then it's an easy solve. Right now I have no clue of what's triggering them.

Also believe eating the clean foods will help with them as well so truly hope this is it. The beauty of the migraines however is I'm not trying to settle with them and the medication given only helps but so much so there is no getting comfortable with my weight/eating anymore.

Was hoping to go shopping and not eat out any during this time however forgot about my classes tonight and tomorrow so thinking I'll hit up a nice Italian restaurant, probably the one right under the same building my class is in. Order some salmon made in olive oil and steamed veggies. Italian because that's what they use anyway so I don't have to worry about rather I'm getting what they're saying they're giving me.

If you'd like info on the cleanse I'm using, check out www.enzymatictherapy.com. I'm doing the Simple Cleanse, usually do the Whole body cleanse and doing the simple only because it was on sale at Whole Foods:) Now I see they have a coupon on their site so may have been the same price. At any rate I'm just glad to have started. Praying that the eating habits will stick too minus migraines. And better yet that this will bring an end to them.

Spring Cleaning

I'm doing some Spring cleaning today and it's making me wonder, why do I always resist it!? I love cleaning it can be quite therapeutic and I love how everything looks once it's done. But getting started can be soooo hard, Like I sat down for all of two seconds to check something on the net and I've been here for about a half hour now LOL figured I'd get a blog in:) And I know some days it's the weather, either too hot where I don't feel like moving or too cold where I don't feel like moving. At least when it's cold once you get started it produces heat but again it's getting started.

I have so much to do too, I'm trying to focus on different areas in the house one at a time (Aside from regular cleaning) so that I'm not overwhelmed. I have one room that's driving me crazy because I'm storing everything I want to give to charity and it's really stacking up so keeping the door closed for now. But want to try to accumulate as much as possible before calling because the particular place I give to usually comes during the week and on specific days to my area which means some missed time at work.

But I'm getting there I still have tons of stuff of my mom's that needs to be sold rather than given away and it's challenging because she'd brought a ton of collectible things in hopes of leaving something for myself and my siblings (despite our warnings that she didn't) yet she didn't mark everything with the prices or keep the receipts in a specific place so not sure what they're all worth. So thinking once I have get everything else in the house in order, will tackle those things.

Now let me get back to cleaning:)

Hulu, slim fast & migraines

I love hulu (hulu.com) where you can catch some of your favorite tv shows and movies among other things. I'm just really getting into using it so not familiar with all of the features but I know I had a ball with it the past couple of days.

Yesterday I watched Super Size Me, been wanting to see this for the longest now yet only think of it in passing therefore never brought it. So was happy to find I could watch it for free and let me tell you, it was a great reminder of why not to eat at fast food restaurants, at least not regularly. I'm so programmed to focus on fat and calories for weight loss that I forget about things like sodium, additives preservatives etc. So if I decide I want something, I'll count that into my day rather than all things being considered.

Could be my answer to why I get so many migraines, at least what started it then trying to eat healthy, my body is going through changes which brings on worse headaches. So it was really informative for me if only for that reason. I couldn't stick to the slim fast I'd just started due to a massive migraine on Monday. Waiting until my body wants to participate and doing it again but may just hold on to what I have and do the cleanse I'd been avoiding. Perhaps that's ultimately what my body is dying for me to do.

On another note I'm loving how much I love to work out now. I get so tired however really fast and again I feel it has to do with first the weight that still needs to be lost on top of the headaches and just all of the changes my body is going through. Yet I rejoice at a love for something I once loathed. And realizing a lot of the pain associated (While there will always be some degree of discomfort no doubt) with it has to do with me, not the workouts itself. One more reason to eat well not just workout.

On that note off to Wholefoods in a few:)

Weight loss goings on

Decided to do slim-fast this week. Not sure where I am pound wise since as I stated last post I'm not weighing right now however I know the pounds were coming off slowly. My goal was to do The Fast Smash when I joined the gym but I cannot find that book and refuse to buy a new one. I'm athe type of person that call myself putting something away and I do nothing more than prevent myself from finding it:) And that's what I did in this case.

Think I'm going to ask my sis to borrow hers if she's not using it but in the meantime, slim-fast it is. Not so much looking to slim fast:) But to get my eating under control and hopefully get the scale moving. Usually doing a detox does it but holding off on doing one for a lil bit yet still need to do something to get more disciplined. And so it dawned on me, go with slim-fast.

I'll do it for about a week and then go from there if I feel the need to do it longer I shall. This week was the first week that I could try out my go wear fit band during a normal activity week, last week I took it off for a hot second and kept forgetting to put it back on:) Yesterday I got pretty close to my goal calorie burn however it's also the day I'm out later for my class so will have to compare Wed. to today and yesterday (have a class tonight also).

Lastly went to the gym yesterday and it was the 1st workout I've done without my trainers aide. I am pleased with how much I was able to retain of what she'd taught me. Supposedly I have one more session with her, today but I'm thinking she got that mixed up and our last was last week but I will found out today. Either way I'm confident I'll be fine without her yet grateful she'll still be there to give some input.

Charles Spurgeon quote

Very sobering quote delivered to my inbox today:

"What makes you better than anyone else? What do you have--that God hasn't given you? And if all you have is from God--why boast as though you have accomplished something on your own?" 1 Corinthians 4:7Christian! By nature--you are no better than others! What would you be--without the continual influence of the Spirit? O believer, whatever you are--you have nothing to make you proud. The more you have--the more you are in debt to God--and should you be proud of that which renders you a debtor?Consider your origin--look back to what you were. "Once you were dead, doomed forever because of your many sins!" Ephesians 2:1. Consider what you would have been--but for divine grace! It is only God's grace--which has made you to differ! Great believer--you would have been a great sinner--if God had not made you to differ! O you who are valiant for truth--you would have been as valiant for error--if grace had not laid hold upon you! Therefore, do not be proud, though you have a wide domain of grace--for once, you had not a single thing to call your own--except your sin and misery!Oh! strange infatuation, that you--who have borrowed everything, should think of exalting yourself! How foolish--that you--a poor dependent pensioner upon the bounty of your Savior--are yet proud! Shame on you--O silly heart!

Another post about nothing:)

I just had the best oatmeal just now from Trader Joe's and will probably be one of the few individuals eating it throughout summer. I have to check the ingredients when I get home before I buy another box.

I know this post will sound way too deep for something like oatmeal LOL, But I'd been trying to make the closest thing to perfection literally all summer. When I buy oats from my job (non instant) they're nice and creamy, when I try to make them at home, they're fluffy bits of oats and came across a site that I thought would aid me in getting them just right but ended up getting a bag of Bob Mill's Oat Bran instead of Oat Mill. I kept looking at the flakes like this looks different but can't pinpoint it LOL. Needless to say still haven't perfected them the way I'd like. And one reason I want to perfect these is so that I'm not eating the instant with all the extra stuff added, I'm monitoring it and so I save money not buying the cooked oats at work when I can make it at home. Oatmeal also is something I can turn to easily and stay full off of until lunch time. By turn to I mean it kicks any craving I may have for bacon eggs cheese etc. And leaves me satisfied. Weird because I never liked them growing up.

I've decided not to weight in until further notice. I feel so much freer when I don't and I can judge by my clothes rather or not I'm losing or gaining. I'll just drive myself coo coo if I weight, at least while the scale is moving like a snail. Yet my clothes tells a whole other story. Just have to remember to get a tape measure now to keep up with inches lost.