Beginning on Monday I'm starting a mini-goal to get out of the 200's. Still have to do the calculations to see how long it'll take and I usually don't like to do that because if I don't hit a goal weight during any given week, it can become discouraging. However and again going back to the mind renewal issue, if I don't get at those things that can make me uncomfortable and fight through them, I'll simply find myself loosing at a snails pace continually or maintaining.
This week my eating has been okay but not as effortless as the past three weeks were. Not that I didn't have my challenging days but noticed since I'm not doing a cleanse or consecration anymore, I'm getting all of these cravings that are easier to say yes to because they I can say for instance if I wanted a hot dog I can add it into my day and watch what else I eat for the remainder of the day. However I may find later that I want cheese in my salad or that I'm not full enough and need to eat a larger portion of whatever it may be, making it easier to go over my daily calorie intake.
Basically I'm really casual which is how I like it and feel it'll be for the good long term with making this a lifestyle change, not just about losing weight. However reality is I want this weight gone also, and while I don't have expectations to lose 20 pounds in one week LOL. I'd like to be more consistent with getting off at least 2 weekly. Without allowing myself the well if I at least maintain I'm cool excuse.
Therefore my plan of action will be first to figure out how many months it should take if I were to lose 2 pounds weekly. And the goal will be to do some increased workout activity as my gowearfit band let me know I was coming in a deficit on most days. And possibly some calorie cut backs but judging by the time of year will most likely go with more increased activity.
Will update here of course my progress:)
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
Heavy food, ready for the grains again:)
Was on a consecration last week which ended 12 noon on Saturday. Won't say I've been eating ever since, but I did take a wee bit of a break from my grains this weekend and praise God am ready to get back to them today. I went to this Italian restaurant yesterday and got Eggplant Rollatini which is eggplant rolled around spinach & ricotta cheese. Topped with mozzarella and tomato sauce. On the side was pasta which had a bichemelle sauce on it. All tasted so heavy and greasy. Good but heavy. Also a Caesar came with my meal which had loads of dressing and huge chunks of parm cheese and I had an appetizer, warm crab cheesecake. Actually didn't get through much of my main dish because was stuffed after the appetizer. But needless to say after all of that heavy food I'm so ready to get back to my oatmeal and salads.
I may actually try the KFC grilled chicken today, and eat a side salad with it for lunch I shall see.
Got down to 234.5 ( I think, can see on sidebar exact weight) I was so shocked and thrilled. Now 10 pounds away from that plateau weight I feel better about not getting back there and motivated to get further away from it. Also stepping it up in the work out department this week. I missed a few days last week for different reasons. But when I did go in, I did the treadmill, actually 15 minutes on bike, 20 on treadmill and remaining time on weight lifting. I started doing 5 minute runs on the treadmill again. It feels so good to do it! Yet it's hard for me at the same time those five minutes can't be over soon enough for me LOL. I'm looking forward to building up the momentum and perhaps being one of those people running down the street when the weather gets like it is right now.
I was actually thinking about that yesterday, I decided I didn't want to sit in the house after I got out of church and went out to dinner to have what I've explained above. I want to begin changing my focus to what I enjoy doing. I'll always love food and I love going to restaurants not just for food but love to people watch etc. But if I take up running or walking or thought about checking out plays, just something non food related so that there isn't always this temptation to get it in. Well yesterday was planned after just about 3 weeks of fasting or cleansing. Yet need to get out of the habit of feeling that need to reward after accomplishing something with food. Especially since my focus is lifestyle change over I'll eat healthy until I lose weight and right back to old habits.
And with summer approaching this is the perfect time to make such a change.
I may actually try the KFC grilled chicken today, and eat a side salad with it for lunch I shall see.
Got down to 234.5 ( I think, can see on sidebar exact weight) I was so shocked and thrilled. Now 10 pounds away from that plateau weight I feel better about not getting back there and motivated to get further away from it. Also stepping it up in the work out department this week. I missed a few days last week for different reasons. But when I did go in, I did the treadmill, actually 15 minutes on bike, 20 on treadmill and remaining time on weight lifting. I started doing 5 minute runs on the treadmill again. It feels so good to do it! Yet it's hard for me at the same time those five minutes can't be over soon enough for me LOL. I'm looking forward to building up the momentum and perhaps being one of those people running down the street when the weather gets like it is right now.
I was actually thinking about that yesterday, I decided I didn't want to sit in the house after I got out of church and went out to dinner to have what I've explained above. I want to begin changing my focus to what I enjoy doing. I'll always love food and I love going to restaurants not just for food but love to people watch etc. But if I take up running or walking or thought about checking out plays, just something non food related so that there isn't always this temptation to get it in. Well yesterday was planned after just about 3 weeks of fasting or cleansing. Yet need to get out of the habit of feeling that need to reward after accomplishing something with food. Especially since my focus is lifestyle change over I'll eat healthy until I lose weight and right back to old habits.
And with summer approaching this is the perfect time to make such a change.
Monday, April 20, 2009
Love Amy's Food!!
This is soooo goood!!! It's cool because I've wanted to try to make a pizza like this with caramelized onions. I'd planned on using tomato sauce but wanted to try the onions to see if I could create a pizza without cheese that I would like and well if I'm not successful with doing it myself, Amy's surely did a good job and I can just get it.Not sure if I posted this before or not (so forgetful!) But I'm trying to figure out a way to grow my locs while working out. I'm locing with extensions so it's not too bad but it gets really bushy about a week or two after I re-twist. I've had locs before about 5 years ago maybe and I did it without extensions and it took a full year to loc completely so I'm not hopeful that this will be able to survive the perspiration. I plan on going to a salon once and see how long it lasts after getting it done. Sometimes others can do your hair better than you can, hoping a loctician will get it tighter than I am. Then my gym is generous in supplying a hair dryer that I can use after I workout. May also have to do dry shampoos as if I were locing on my own (without extensions) and having to wait before getting wet. I shall see but cutting them isn't an option.....nor is putting off working out.
With that said, realizing I haven't gotten in enough water today and my body is saying yeah pretty much so let me go take care of that:)
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
Back in the gym
I went to the gym yesterday for the first time in almost three weeks. As a matter of fact, my motivation for going is the fact that it had almost been three weeks since I'd last been. I took a break due to the cleanse which it's recommended to take it easy. That first Monday I went to the gym and just took it light which was my plan for the duration of the cleanse. However other things in life kept coming up to where I wasn't able to get in, almost didn't make it yesterday due to taking my student workers (work at a Univ) at work to breakfast as a part of student worker appreciation week. So figured I wouldn't take my lunch until it dawned on me I could do just that and went ahead to my class.
Going to go in a few minutes today and may if I can get myself out of bed early tomorrow, go tomorrow morning early as well. I tell you I had to keep drinking water my arms were tiring fast and the whole nine. It took much work to get to the level of strenght I did so my thoughts are to be sure to keep it light as I planned and if nothing else in the weight lifting department. Especially since I'm now planning to do this four times a year.
Also I realized I won't need to do the fiber pills because I started using flax seed. I put some in my oatmeal in the morning and it has plenty of fiber in it which keeps you full and well regular:) There are tons of other benefits to using it aside from this, I'll make a mental note to do a post on that real soon, right now gotta run out the door hit the gym and get home.
Going to go in a few minutes today and may if I can get myself out of bed early tomorrow, go tomorrow morning early as well. I tell you I had to keep drinking water my arms were tiring fast and the whole nine. It took much work to get to the level of strenght I did so my thoughts are to be sure to keep it light as I planned and if nothing else in the weight lifting department. Especially since I'm now planning to do this four times a year.
Also I realized I won't need to do the fiber pills because I started using flax seed. I put some in my oatmeal in the morning and it has plenty of fiber in it which keeps you full and well regular:) There are tons of other benefits to using it aside from this, I'll make a mental note to do a post on that real soon, right now gotta run out the door hit the gym and get home.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Weight Loss-Done Cleanse
So my cleanse is done!! I'd actually stopped early with intentions of continuing this week. I got a huge hit with cravings round about Thursday which to be in the 2nd week is odd especially since I was truer to the outline this time around and cravings tend to subside around now. However I had a taste for salmon like everyday. And although I didn't eat it daily, I ate it often and I think that may have contributed to cravings kicking in, didn't feel as though I'd gotten tired of it but perhaps I did yet didn't realize. Or better put, perhaps my body was letting me know it needed other things LOL and therefore they kicked in:)
So I decided rather than fight through, history let's me know I'll just want to binge if I just try to stick it out. I didn't give into every craving but I broke the cleanse and had some of the things I wanted. Altogether I lost 7 pounds but I'm trying to figure out how that is now looking at my weight loss stats on the left hand sidebar. I was going through my plateau yet I don't remember getting up to 245.5 which would account for an additional 1.5 loss. Whatever the case I'm away from those 240's!!! They went out kicking and screaming. Hard but convicting, I never want to find myself re-losing weight again, unless it's because I'm trying to stay within a 10 pound range of my goal weight and yeah I'm not going to be obsessive about it so I'm sure I'll experience the occasional gain.
Now although I stopped the cleanse a few days short, I have decided to stick to what I was eating while on it. Being sure to get in more than just salmon:) and allowing myself some cheese and other things but ultimately my oatmeal in the morning, salad for lunch and fish(or some kind of meat) veggies and if starch, sweet potato or brown rice and snacking on fruit or other healthy stuff. I've been on a fish kick not just with the salmon either but I guess that aided in it. But I haven't wanted anything else which can be good but fish is expensive so guess I'll balance it out with some vegetarian dishes.
Lastly, I'm able to do this cleanse four times a year and so thinking I'll do it once per season this time around rather than just one per year. When I thought about why I may not have done this in the past, my guess is I was thinking about the moola. And yet again reminded:) that the money that will be saved due to better health is immeasurable. My migraine pills were like 20 something last I brought them and to have to take them daily compared to buying this cleanse, the one I did was forget how much but under $20, which would I prefer to do? And it's 4x's a year oppose to continuously. Then there are the blood pressure pills as well, forget what they cost so yeah doing it. And figured if I'm doing this that many times in one year, it'll truly change my diet, making it difficult to fall right back into old habits. Not sure that I'll do the same yearly but will see for this year at least.
Also going to stay with the fiber pills (was included with the cleanse) which can be taken daily. May look into other brands that may be less expensive.
So that's where I am on the weight loss front. Slow but I am getting there, as always a reminder of how my flesh is/what it looks like before God in every area that I struggle in how I have to pray but how I also have to fight it out. Knowing by faith it will indeed be conquered.
So I decided rather than fight through, history let's me know I'll just want to binge if I just try to stick it out. I didn't give into every craving but I broke the cleanse and had some of the things I wanted. Altogether I lost 7 pounds but I'm trying to figure out how that is now looking at my weight loss stats on the left hand sidebar. I was going through my plateau yet I don't remember getting up to 245.5 which would account for an additional 1.5 loss. Whatever the case I'm away from those 240's!!! They went out kicking and screaming. Hard but convicting, I never want to find myself re-losing weight again, unless it's because I'm trying to stay within a 10 pound range of my goal weight and yeah I'm not going to be obsessive about it so I'm sure I'll experience the occasional gain.
Now although I stopped the cleanse a few days short, I have decided to stick to what I was eating while on it. Being sure to get in more than just salmon:) and allowing myself some cheese and other things but ultimately my oatmeal in the morning, salad for lunch and fish(or some kind of meat) veggies and if starch, sweet potato or brown rice and snacking on fruit or other healthy stuff. I've been on a fish kick not just with the salmon either but I guess that aided in it. But I haven't wanted anything else which can be good but fish is expensive so guess I'll balance it out with some vegetarian dishes.
Lastly, I'm able to do this cleanse four times a year and so thinking I'll do it once per season this time around rather than just one per year. When I thought about why I may not have done this in the past, my guess is I was thinking about the moola. And yet again reminded:) that the money that will be saved due to better health is immeasurable. My migraine pills were like 20 something last I brought them and to have to take them daily compared to buying this cleanse, the one I did was forget how much but under $20, which would I prefer to do? And it's 4x's a year oppose to continuously. Then there are the blood pressure pills as well, forget what they cost so yeah doing it. And figured if I'm doing this that many times in one year, it'll truly change my diet, making it difficult to fall right back into old habits. Not sure that I'll do the same yearly but will see for this year at least.
Also going to stay with the fiber pills (was included with the cleanse) which can be taken daily. May look into other brands that may be less expensive.
So that's where I am on the weight loss front. Slow but I am getting there, as always a reminder of how my flesh is/what it looks like before God in every area that I struggle in how I have to pray but how I also have to fight it out. Knowing by faith it will indeed be conquered.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
He is Risen!!
So it's resurrection Sunday and I'm so filled with joy. Don't know what it is, I reflect on what the Lord has done for me all year round. But something about this dedicated time that truly causes me to reflect on His sacrifice. Perhaps because if I'm speaking to others, the holiday gives the opportunity to speak solely about Jesus. Not my testimony, not the testimony of others not why you go to church pay titles or give offering or whatever other thing that may come to my mind or the hearer's mind. But its' totally about Him why He came why He had to die how we should have been on the Cross instead etc.
Not that the above mentioned isn't about Him also but those things can give more segway to other things and other religions and why they do what they do. When Christ is the center all of that gets squashed not that people won't challenge you but either they believe, a seed gets planted or they do not believe. Not on the basis of anything man has done or proven but solely God alone.
And when it comes to my being redeemed, It's also a reminder for me of when I first got saved, how intimate a savior I have that He'd show me other men may have claimed they'd die for you to get something from you. But I did it knowing you had nothing of worth to offer me. Before you were born before you spat on me before you accused me threw stones at me mocked me and my ways hated my chosen ones etc. Very sobering so grateful to my Lord for His sacrifice one that I wouldn't have done on behalf of anyone if I'm being honest. I'd hope that if a situation came into play I'd sacrifice my life for a loved one. But can't front on doing so for someone that hates me. Yet I pray that He does such a work in my heart that I would be willing to do so ie Stephen. He could have saw their rage towards him and said shoot this is a wipe the dust off situation (Although Paul hadn't said it yet as he was there holding the coats LOL) But seeing their rage and ultimately it was the love he had for his Lord that drove him and like his savior he prayed that an account wouldn't be held against them (all paraphrased).
Let em go before I'm late for church:) Pray everyone reading has a beautiful blessed Resurrection day. Pray that this day until the day He comes for us, we will reflect on the price paid for our sins.
Not that the above mentioned isn't about Him also but those things can give more segway to other things and other religions and why they do what they do. When Christ is the center all of that gets squashed not that people won't challenge you but either they believe, a seed gets planted or they do not believe. Not on the basis of anything man has done or proven but solely God alone.
And when it comes to my being redeemed, It's also a reminder for me of when I first got saved, how intimate a savior I have that He'd show me other men may have claimed they'd die for you to get something from you. But I did it knowing you had nothing of worth to offer me. Before you were born before you spat on me before you accused me threw stones at me mocked me and my ways hated my chosen ones etc. Very sobering so grateful to my Lord for His sacrifice one that I wouldn't have done on behalf of anyone if I'm being honest. I'd hope that if a situation came into play I'd sacrifice my life for a loved one. But can't front on doing so for someone that hates me. Yet I pray that He does such a work in my heart that I would be willing to do so ie Stephen. He could have saw their rage towards him and said shoot this is a wipe the dust off situation (Although Paul hadn't said it yet as he was there holding the coats LOL) But seeing their rage and ultimately it was the love he had for his Lord that drove him and like his savior he prayed that an account wouldn't be held against them (all paraphrased).
Let em go before I'm late for church:) Pray everyone reading has a beautiful blessed Resurrection day. Pray that this day until the day He comes for us, we will reflect on the price paid for our sins.
Friday, April 10, 2009
Daughter's Venture
So about that venture I'm helping my daughter start off, this is so apropos (hold that's spelled correctly:)) as I'm having such an entrepreneurial day:) Anyway before I get sidetracked that's another post for another day. I've been wanting to start a soap business company for my daughter for some time now. The primary hold up being age, would she be able to handle it at a young age? Not even speaking about the responsibility of it, beauty of this sort of venture she could have a few clients and stick with that, making soaps for them as needed. Or as simple as making soaps only during holiday seasons that would cause someone to want to buy it.
But speaking on maturity will she only see money or will she see the various lessons I feel she could learn in doing this. So many youth in the neighborhood we live in don't get the opportunities to know what's out there for them to do apart from a program getting a hold of them and showing them the way so to speak. And nothing wrong with that but that sort of thing is just an eye opener to the sort of things I should be doing as parent at home. This venture is more about teaching her entrepreneurship skills, giving both in giving away that which she could have profited from, as well as when she does profit, giving at church, setting up fundraisers etc.
Or even when the money had isn't profit but what only covers expenses, giving in spite of that fact. Also want her to know what it is to pay bills at an early age, may (of course depends on what this business generates) have her pay for web hosting or something which would most likely be free through a family member so have them charge something that's not outrageous but gives her the picture of what has to be taken care of. Also keeping deadlines, work ethic etc. She used her own start up capital to buy supplies that were used in testing. I told her she'll need to do record keeping to keep up with it and figure out how much she'll need to sell each bar for in order to make a profit.
Which also brings to mind, needed to be sure she was at an age where she could handle the disappointment of the ups and downs of having your own business.
Also want to encouraged those things in her that she likes to do, not forcing this on her but asked if she'd be interested and told her the responsibilities of it and so we're going to start of with something small.
I think she's ready and we'll start really small. Right now helping her come up with the different soaps, will have to get appropriate licenses for her to be able to sell, and other details after and she'll be good to go.
She's at a very interested age right now which requires much patience on my part. So praying the Lord would give me said patience, and also utilize this experience to further cultivate our relationships. I look at how little time I have now to pour into her. Not that motherhood stops but it has yet to show who she'll be when she's out the doors on her own. So praying that I use this time wisely and that she's one of the ones out of high school that can't imagine turning away from the Lord. And not because mom said so but because He's revealed Himself to her and that she is indeed good ground. Looking forward to reading some of the parenting books suggested recently it's sad because many a day I've said I would invest in more books in relation to this topic and have yet to do so. Have God's word indeed and He is faithful in revealing things to me yet sometimes said revealing comes through something like a book (ie peep them 66 books LOL:)) so I know I'm missing out on loads of wisdom that He's shown other parents, and especially being a single mom.
I tell people I'm not mom and dad I'm mom and God is true to His word, He's Father to the Fatherless. But wisdom gained in that is what I don't get to see. I knew my dad but didn't know him while married to my mom and visited him oppose to being reared daily by him and even in the visiting, there was disfunction. Praise God for His being a restorer!!! And it makes me all the more want to know His ways, just like with studying marriage even if I don't marry I want to be on point in knowing what biblical marriage entails/looks like. Same here even if my daughter never knows what it is to call someone dad, I want to teach her what a dad is should look like biblically. And aways praying that she's shaped by that, not her reality of not knowing her own.
So praise God excited to get my hands on those books and will be doing reviews on here. And managed to tie two topics in one blog after all so I'll end with that:)
But speaking on maturity will she only see money or will she see the various lessons I feel she could learn in doing this. So many youth in the neighborhood we live in don't get the opportunities to know what's out there for them to do apart from a program getting a hold of them and showing them the way so to speak. And nothing wrong with that but that sort of thing is just an eye opener to the sort of things I should be doing as parent at home. This venture is more about teaching her entrepreneurship skills, giving both in giving away that which she could have profited from, as well as when she does profit, giving at church, setting up fundraisers etc.
Or even when the money had isn't profit but what only covers expenses, giving in spite of that fact. Also want her to know what it is to pay bills at an early age, may (of course depends on what this business generates) have her pay for web hosting or something which would most likely be free through a family member so have them charge something that's not outrageous but gives her the picture of what has to be taken care of. Also keeping deadlines, work ethic etc. She used her own start up capital to buy supplies that were used in testing. I told her she'll need to do record keeping to keep up with it and figure out how much she'll need to sell each bar for in order to make a profit.
Which also brings to mind, needed to be sure she was at an age where she could handle the disappointment of the ups and downs of having your own business.
Also want to encouraged those things in her that she likes to do, not forcing this on her but asked if she'd be interested and told her the responsibilities of it and so we're going to start of with something small.
I think she's ready and we'll start really small. Right now helping her come up with the different soaps, will have to get appropriate licenses for her to be able to sell, and other details after and she'll be good to go.
She's at a very interested age right now which requires much patience on my part. So praying the Lord would give me said patience, and also utilize this experience to further cultivate our relationships. I look at how little time I have now to pour into her. Not that motherhood stops but it has yet to show who she'll be when she's out the doors on her own. So praying that I use this time wisely and that she's one of the ones out of high school that can't imagine turning away from the Lord. And not because mom said so but because He's revealed Himself to her and that she is indeed good ground. Looking forward to reading some of the parenting books suggested recently it's sad because many a day I've said I would invest in more books in relation to this topic and have yet to do so. Have God's word indeed and He is faithful in revealing things to me yet sometimes said revealing comes through something like a book (ie peep them 66 books LOL:)) so I know I'm missing out on loads of wisdom that He's shown other parents, and especially being a single mom.
I tell people I'm not mom and dad I'm mom and God is true to His word, He's Father to the Fatherless. But wisdom gained in that is what I don't get to see. I knew my dad but didn't know him while married to my mom and visited him oppose to being reared daily by him and even in the visiting, there was disfunction. Praise God for His being a restorer!!! And it makes me all the more want to know His ways, just like with studying marriage even if I don't marry I want to be on point in knowing what biblical marriage entails/looks like. Same here even if my daughter never knows what it is to call someone dad, I want to teach her what a dad is should look like biblically. And aways praying that she's shaped by that, not her reality of not knowing her own.
So praise God excited to get my hands on those books and will be doing reviews on here. And managed to tie two topics in one blog after all so I'll end with that:)
Thursday, April 9, 2009
On the job training
So my daughter is coming to work with me this week due to her being out of school for Easter Vacay. My supervisor comes into my office and not quite sure how we even got on the subject. But basically asked if I'd want to have my daughter work there over the summer.
I just kept stressing how she's not of legal age yet and basically laughing not thinking her serious because she's only 12. One of my co-workers will be out for a surgery for a month and with their being a hiring freeze at the job, I'm guessing she's concerned about what will take place that month and my guess is paying a 12 year old under the table is better than hiring an additional temp.
However that's not about to happen! What I will suggest is a coworker who has a 14 year old, if they get her set up to work there they could do so. Funny I was just teaching @ my church's women's fellowship on Sat. about how my job is yet God has me there for a season. Pretty long season LOL nevertheless and I believe the longness of it has more to do with his being patient with me than anything.
And He recently blessed me by sending a fellow believer there who's walking it out, others say they are but I have yet to see the fruit that accompanies salvation. Yesterday she let me know that her Church will be hosting a viewing of Fireproof on Saturday. I said to my daughter who was with me she had to ask who is this woman the Lord has me working for because I gasped LOL. In all environments the silly goes with me:) Anyway although I have the movie read the book and the whole nine already, was still really exited. Hoping to go with some friends but if not will be rolling solo on Septa and hoping to fellowship with some believers I've never had the privilege to fellowship with before.
I'm so grateful because she's a believer, walking it out, and a appears to be a sweet person. I feel I need that personality in my life right about now, not better than any other at times I feel I need believers in my life that are more no holds bar. Not mean but might not make you as comfortable as you'd like. And even at times need unbelievers (and believers can qualify in this area also) to be a thorn in the flesh. So yeah rejoice in it all and enjoying a sweet nature right about now:)
Oh and I wanted to write on a venture I am going to start my daughter off in, where she learns how to earn money while giving to Caesar what is Caesar's but I guess I'll have to blog that next time around because I got to run and working on the longer posts also:)
I just kept stressing how she's not of legal age yet and basically laughing not thinking her serious because she's only 12. One of my co-workers will be out for a surgery for a month and with their being a hiring freeze at the job, I'm guessing she's concerned about what will take place that month and my guess is paying a 12 year old under the table is better than hiring an additional temp.
However that's not about to happen! What I will suggest is a coworker who has a 14 year old, if they get her set up to work there they could do so. Funny I was just teaching @ my church's women's fellowship on Sat. about how my job is yet God has me there for a season. Pretty long season LOL nevertheless and I believe the longness of it has more to do with his being patient with me than anything.
And He recently blessed me by sending a fellow believer there who's walking it out, others say they are but I have yet to see the fruit that accompanies salvation. Yesterday she let me know that her Church will be hosting a viewing of Fireproof on Saturday. I said to my daughter who was with me she had to ask who is this woman the Lord has me working for because I gasped LOL. In all environments the silly goes with me:) Anyway although I have the movie read the book and the whole nine already, was still really exited. Hoping to go with some friends but if not will be rolling solo on Septa and hoping to fellowship with some believers I've never had the privilege to fellowship with before.
I'm so grateful because she's a believer, walking it out, and a appears to be a sweet person. I feel I need that personality in my life right about now, not better than any other at times I feel I need believers in my life that are more no holds bar. Not mean but might not make you as comfortable as you'd like. And even at times need unbelievers (and believers can qualify in this area also) to be a thorn in the flesh. So yeah rejoice in it all and enjoying a sweet nature right about now:)
Oh and I wanted to write on a venture I am going to start my daughter off in, where she learns how to earn money while giving to Caesar what is Caesar's but I guess I'll have to blog that next time around because I got to run and working on the longer posts also:)
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Web Design/Cleanse/Weight Loss
I'm am like trying really hard not to be stressed right now. I have my web design final project due tonight and intended to finish it over the weekend. Had that nagging feeling I was suppose to do something yet couldn't recall exactly what it was. Until it was late Sat. night!!! And Sunday my day was so packed that I didn't have time to get it done then either and I also have a Monday night class.
Got some done and my issues is to do it and leave it alone, don't add anything else to it don't touch it. Of course that doesn't work out I'm always looking at ways to improve. So what I'll have to do is rush home and finish it, not going to the class as I have the option to send it via email. Or I'm going to send him the site I finished for my sister last week. Not the design I sought to send but still mines and finished!!
Truly have to become better organized and so glad this is the last class for the semester. I have one more Monday class due to a snow day cancellation I need to make up. But that'll be doing the same, turning in the final project and decided the site I used for Web class I'm going to use to add flash to it so won't be pulling my hair out again.
On another note, Haven't been to the gym this week, since I'm doing a cleanse light movement is recommended but I wanted to get to the gym just to stay in the norm of things but again busyness prevented that so going tomorrow. More so doing it this week to stay consistent. And happy to say I'm past my plateau!! At least will be if I stick to eating this way after I'm done cleansing. I find the weight I lose during this time stays off, however I realize the need to not jump right back into old habits, even the ones that are for the most part good ones. I've decided to add to what I'm already eating, my yogurt, going to try to add cheese back slowly although I had some today have been restricting self from it as that's one of the recommended do not's. I haven't once followed this cleanse perfectly and actually this time decided to have some days where I choose to eat that which is recommended not to, so I wouldn't find myself wanting to eat everything in the fridge and so far so good.
One thing I would love to take back is eating at a Chinese Buffet Sunday! I did pretty well in terms of not eating a lot, ate tons of fruit and would have had salad but remembered that's one of my migraine triggers (salads from salad bars, not salad in general) so left that alone. Didn't matter still got one and my guess is the MSG. But it did bring to mind the fact that it's official, I can't jut eat what I want and be fine anymore which truly is a blessing!!! If I don't want to feel the way migraines make me feel, I will watch what I eat. Just have to find a way to eat those foods I like on an every now and again basis, trigger foods that is and I'm thinking most likely will make for self, that's the best option.
All for now, at the end of my cleanse I'm going to weight to see the final lost then maybe another week or two after that before I go on scale hiatus again:)
Got some done and my issues is to do it and leave it alone, don't add anything else to it don't touch it. Of course that doesn't work out I'm always looking at ways to improve. So what I'll have to do is rush home and finish it, not going to the class as I have the option to send it via email. Or I'm going to send him the site I finished for my sister last week. Not the design I sought to send but still mines and finished!!
Truly have to become better organized and so glad this is the last class for the semester. I have one more Monday class due to a snow day cancellation I need to make up. But that'll be doing the same, turning in the final project and decided the site I used for Web class I'm going to use to add flash to it so won't be pulling my hair out again.
On another note, Haven't been to the gym this week, since I'm doing a cleanse light movement is recommended but I wanted to get to the gym just to stay in the norm of things but again busyness prevented that so going tomorrow. More so doing it this week to stay consistent. And happy to say I'm past my plateau!! At least will be if I stick to eating this way after I'm done cleansing. I find the weight I lose during this time stays off, however I realize the need to not jump right back into old habits, even the ones that are for the most part good ones. I've decided to add to what I'm already eating, my yogurt, going to try to add cheese back slowly although I had some today have been restricting self from it as that's one of the recommended do not's. I haven't once followed this cleanse perfectly and actually this time decided to have some days where I choose to eat that which is recommended not to, so I wouldn't find myself wanting to eat everything in the fridge and so far so good.
One thing I would love to take back is eating at a Chinese Buffet Sunday! I did pretty well in terms of not eating a lot, ate tons of fruit and would have had salad but remembered that's one of my migraine triggers (salads from salad bars, not salad in general) so left that alone. Didn't matter still got one and my guess is the MSG. But it did bring to mind the fact that it's official, I can't jut eat what I want and be fine anymore which truly is a blessing!!! If I don't want to feel the way migraines make me feel, I will watch what I eat. Just have to find a way to eat those foods I like on an every now and again basis, trigger foods that is and I'm thinking most likely will make for self, that's the best option.
All for now, at the end of my cleanse I'm going to weight to see the final lost then maybe another week or two after that before I go on scale hiatus again:)
Friday, April 3, 2009
Fireproof-The Book
So I'm reading the book version of Fireproof and not sure how that came about LOL. I believe I saw it in Borders and I'm always seeing a movie of something and thinking I want to read the book to get all of the extra details that have to be cut out to make the movie 2 hrs or less.
And for the 1st time I've actually brought the book that went with the movie. It's pretty good, reads almost identical to the movie except for those cut out parts I've mentioned. Yet for some reason the details of it, especially the strained marriage hit home that much harder. Not sure if it's the additional details to the story or the way reading books causes you to envision/think more on what's going on in the story or what. But I often times say to myself, when I really desire marriage that everyday won't be a picnic. And purposely seek to examine things that I could bring into a marriage that would cause it damage or that I feel would effect me to my core to the point of hating a man I once loved.
These are things that I do not exclusive to wanting to be married but as a believer. Yet I think on this specific to desiring marriage because it's easy to see it either for what it's not and will not be, or not seeing it for what it could be. For example I don't want to take on a bunch of fears of what could occur in marriage. However I don't want to be naive to the fact that the man that I marry that's attentive for instance, that that could change and my response shouldn't be to become hard hearted towards him but to love him anyway, communicate the issue with him if he doesn't receive it pray for him and communicate it to my LORD.
So it makes me think on the importance of these sort of things not just the beauty of having that companionship or how we'll serve the Lord together and all of those things that are good but will be likely to require some work.
I can also see more clearly the work that the Lord did in them, certain parts of the movie that were silent the book gives voice to. Like what the wife was thinking when she marched out of the room after her husband cooked dinner for the two of them and things like that. Shows the process of how the unregenerate mind operates. We're so self focus in our flesh that we cannot even recognize good for seeing bad and how we were wronged. Just very sobering for me as a believer how I can become blinded by offenses oppose to recognizing the need to forgive.
A good read thus far, still reading and definitely recommend for anyone that hasn't seen the movie to read this first if considering both. Well I guess depends on which would be worse feeling like you're watching the movie for a second time due to what you've read or like you're reading what you've already seen so takes away from it.
Yet I think doing both is beneficial, at least I've found it to be a huge eye opener
And for the 1st time I've actually brought the book that went with the movie. It's pretty good, reads almost identical to the movie except for those cut out parts I've mentioned. Yet for some reason the details of it, especially the strained marriage hit home that much harder. Not sure if it's the additional details to the story or the way reading books causes you to envision/think more on what's going on in the story or what. But I often times say to myself, when I really desire marriage that everyday won't be a picnic. And purposely seek to examine things that I could bring into a marriage that would cause it damage or that I feel would effect me to my core to the point of hating a man I once loved.
These are things that I do not exclusive to wanting to be married but as a believer. Yet I think on this specific to desiring marriage because it's easy to see it either for what it's not and will not be, or not seeing it for what it could be. For example I don't want to take on a bunch of fears of what could occur in marriage. However I don't want to be naive to the fact that the man that I marry that's attentive for instance, that that could change and my response shouldn't be to become hard hearted towards him but to love him anyway, communicate the issue with him if he doesn't receive it pray for him and communicate it to my LORD.
So it makes me think on the importance of these sort of things not just the beauty of having that companionship or how we'll serve the Lord together and all of those things that are good but will be likely to require some work.
I can also see more clearly the work that the Lord did in them, certain parts of the movie that were silent the book gives voice to. Like what the wife was thinking when she marched out of the room after her husband cooked dinner for the two of them and things like that. Shows the process of how the unregenerate mind operates. We're so self focus in our flesh that we cannot even recognize good for seeing bad and how we were wronged. Just very sobering for me as a believer how I can become blinded by offenses oppose to recognizing the need to forgive.
A good read thus far, still reading and definitely recommend for anyone that hasn't seen the movie to read this first if considering both. Well I guess depends on which would be worse feeling like you're watching the movie for a second time due to what you've read or like you're reading what you've already seen so takes away from it.
Yet I think doing both is beneficial, at least I've found it to be a huge eye opener
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Sweet Sweet Victory
I haven't had a migraine in two days and looks like I'm going on a third praise God. Due to prevention methods. I could feel one coming on since I had a major one on Monday but decided (And think I mentioned this already:)) to take medication each morning rather than waiting for one to come on. Can't keep this up indefinitely and hopefully I'll just get to the place of not having them. But for the two weeks of the cleanse I'm going to stick with it unless I notice a noticeable change to stop doing so.
Also realize I probably should eat something while I'm at home before heading to work then eating my "real" breakfast so to speak when I get there. I usually don't because a lot of times if I eat too early or not enough, I'll end up with a headache from that because for some reason it makes me hungrier. But I think in the time it'll take me to get to work that should be good and keeps me from getting so hungry from not eating early enough that I get one anyway.
It's a slow deliverance but I praise God that I haven't tossed up my hands and believe I'll overcome this.
Also realize I probably should eat something while I'm at home before heading to work then eating my "real" breakfast so to speak when I get there. I usually don't because a lot of times if I eat too early or not enough, I'll end up with a headache from that because for some reason it makes me hungrier. But I think in the time it'll take me to get to work that should be good and keeps me from getting so hungry from not eating early enough that I get one anyway.
It's a slow deliverance but I praise God that I haven't tossed up my hands and believe I'll overcome this.
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